Ah, I see. So it's like playing GTA, but then you wouldn't do any of that stuff in real life. I'm pretty sure I enjoyed all this in the past and it wouldn't even cross my mind when I was in relationships, but I never really thought too deeply into until just recently because before I had a stern mind that everything that happened in hentai is pure fiction and wouldn't be able to happen in real life but then I realized that there are couples who do cuckold and cheat in real life after their curiosity or desire gets the best of them ,re-reading netoraserare and doing some searches and now words like cuck make me flinch.
I guess you can say that i'm wavering between my moral standpoints and that I wouldn't like to be ntr'd,cuck'd, or be a cuckold(mainly in netoraserare's care where he basically had E.D unless so and so happened) in the future because back then my mindset was that if a girl cheated on me, I'd break up with them no buts, but then what if I became like the dude from netoraserare and it was a biological thing that I wouldn't be able to get it up normally.( This was my main fear and main reason why I created the topic, though I erased it)