aoishiro

Hey yall I'm a covid survivor and currently having symptom of long covid - still coughing disrupting sleep. Thing is happy thoughts and happy mental state should help with recovery and increase immunity. But its easier said then done. Its been a while since i finished reading a complete VN, 5-6 years ago ( I was here when fuwanovel initially created, i remember that sheep VN paca plus or something available for download LUL) i think. Real life got to me and i got less and less free time. I played a lot of monster hunter but after that incident , it doesnt make me happy anymore. same goes with another similar game. I just felt too tired and too lazy to play conventional games. I felt blue everyday and outside work struggling to find stuff that would make me happy. I currently try to rekindle my old love for VN (MUV LUV , Clannad, Fate, Family project, etc) and would really appreciate if you guys could recommend a title that brings warm to your heart. I work and stay at home all day, and hopefully great VN will keep me help me sleep, give me a better dream, cure the after affect) Many thanks to you guys all from the bottom of my heart. n.b: Currently playing subarashiki hibi and atri.

so remember me, if not. it's ok. i posted a while back on the visual novel talk section, about my love for kazoku keikaku vn and ... some stuff about fallin in love with married woman.. guess what i acted on it... turns out, she had the most classic problem with her husband and her mother in law. her mother in law beats her and regulary go into verbal fight with her.. and her husband cheats on her, verbally abuse her, do drugs and gamble.... so, real life problem huh... it's not easy to get her to accept my feelings, tell you that much... shes fckin traumatized... thinks all guys evil... my feeling is sincere though.. nothing more sinful than abusing soon to be single mothers feelings. did she looked super pretty or sexy? no. not really so why in the blue fuck do i fall in love with her, and got in to these mess? why can;t i just find some nice girl, somewhere with no fuckin baggage... TELL YOU WHAT>>? its that damned bishoujo that change me.. fucked me up real good, on. I WANT TO SAFE HER>>>> ffS thats the only reason.. its feel at least the same when saving aeka in yume miru kusuri... saving matsuri in kazoku keikaku, saving yukko in crescendo, ...... do i regret it????? not one bit???? do i know what kind of hardship awaits me in the future.. not really.... no, it's the best things that happened in my life... there will be no boring moment in my life now... oh, and she's got a kid with her... it fuckin scary as hell money wise..... oh god.....

family project, kazoku keikaku. it's been 8 years since i first play this game, still haven't finished it. in fact could not finish it. i don't have the strenght to finished it, to cheat on matsuri in fact. it's the vn, that changed my life perspective. in the moment of my deepest sadness, i always play the bgm, cry and felt better. i'm a man, who lost his father 1 year ago to lung cancer, he's a heavy smoker, no surprise there. age 74. now i live alone with my 75 years old mother. i'm 27 years old. a normal healty, average looking guy. i've got 3.85 gpa in financial management. i'm a very recluse person inside, but on the outside i can act pretty well. i have a good job with 3 subordinates working under me. but i kept my secret inside of me, that i love a vn so much, it drives me on how to live my life. now i fell in love with one of my subordinates who is already married for just 3 years with 2 years old baby she and was 1 or 2 year older than me. she is a strong woman who carried her family. meaning she made most of the money in her family, still taking care of her husband and child while having occasional fight with the mother in law. i was mesmerized by her determination, her integrity and at the same time. felt so shitty... of course she doesn't know, she says she feels lucky to have me as her boss.. i don't feel good right now, so i turn back to the things i loved so much. kazoku keikaku. cause listening to the video 'sakura anatte deatte yokatta' isn't enough anymore. ------ after so many years, i've decide to share my 'feelings' on the best most human clannad predecessor vn. kawahara matsuri. a girl who live in a cardboard box after her parents death.. 16 years old, school at the morning. work at a factory at the afternoon till night, go back to the cardboard box to sleep. rinse and repeat. sawamura tsukasa. if i'm allowed to answer the question 'who am i in one sentence' that would be sawamura tsukasa. he's the personification of myself. every thought of his, every decision presented to him. every decision he made. every feeling he had, every laughter, anger, anoyyance, everything..... is me. there is no other character in anything... that i could relate more than sawamura tsukasa in family project. that is on of the reason why this vn is so so special to me, it felt that it was written FOR ME.. back to matsuri. strong on the outside but very fragile on the inside. working so hard trying to be accepted, afarid of rejection. dont't care about her limit, work work and work to make other people accept her and love her. she wants a family.... a happy one even if its a fake one. in her route, tsukasa and her fiunally buy a house a small flat which used to belong to his family. a cheap one with no bath. no money or anything. but they are happy... the moment when she waited for tsukasa in the dark hoping that he woulnd't leave her, touch me so much that it probably the last thing i would remember on my dying breath. i'm normal in fact so normal that i just want someone like her in real life. someone who is strong, determined, but still fragile on the inside. .... im saying all of this, the deepest thought on my mind in a forum to complete strangers, cause im so miserable right now, i felt like going insane. i don't do diary. i want someone somewhere to read this... if you don't care or care enough to ridicule me, thats all right. even if theres only one person who could share my feelings. thats good enough... i really love her .couldn't act on it of course, i don't want to be the bad guy. thank you, whoever you are if you read this far... thank you

Just FYI His website http://www.tokidan.com/ has been dead for a quite long time and twitter's been dead for more than a year. http://vndb.org/v5834 http://vntls.org/project/irotoridori-no-sekai/ 85% and dead, sad stuff.