It's quite saddening to hear that some people dislike the way you're directing (?) the podcasts after seeing the amount of effort you put in this project.
It's normal to be nervous when talking like this. Even I, having as much experience as I do when it comes to talking in front of a crowd, was thinking things like "What if I mess up?, What if I'm so nervous that I can't speak properly?". But even though we may be anxious, we give our best when we have to.
Also, I'm completely sure that, just like some people who don't, there are a lot of people who support this project and, of course, you. Those may be only the ones in this thread but I'm sure there are others who, even if they don't post something, they're waiting for a new episode to be released.
P.D: I'd like to volunteer for Episode 8.