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4 hours ago, Kiriririri said:

Confession: I can't believe I'm writing a school assignment about Totono :pyaa: 

These life choices. I approve so much.

Just keep telling your teacher(s) how Aoi is best grill 

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Oh cool, I made it back just in time to miss the event I absolutely saw coming. Too bad~

On 1/11/2016 at 9:24 AM, Funyarinpa said:

(Possibly long whine incoming)

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I just don't want to care anymore.

How wonderful it'd be if I was just fine with giving no fucks about academics. going to some shitty university in Turkey, and ending life after retiring from a few decades of cubicle work.

Basically I'm at the end of my midterms, where my eligibility for a few Advanced Placement courses I could possibly take next year was to be determined. Physics exam results just came in and there's not a single AP course I can enroll in. There were only three exams I'd been feeling confident about and I got less than what I was going for in all of them (Turkish, English and Biology) though all of them are normally good (Turkish 87, Biology and English 96 out of 110, where it's recorded as 87/100 and 96/100 respectively and the extra marks go into other grades). The rest is just shit. Ironically enough, the two exams I'd consider myself successful in are two subjects I hate, Turkish Literature and History (Turk. Lit is 72, highest TLit mark yet, and History is 85 which is also my highest mark in History this year).

Not a single bit of success I really care about (except having the third best English grade for the term, was aiming for a perfect 100, heh), and it doesn't help that I've realized I'm in the bottom 30 of my term in terms of grades. It's *veeery* motivating when you know you're going to the same school with quite a few jocks who just monkey around and do nothing else. I don't even know if I should be going STEM anymore, doesn't feel like I'd be able to do it. I'd try for being an author instead, but the thing is I'm nowhere near witty or creative enough for my works to sell (not to mention that my prose would probably be jacked since I want to write in English and there's a LOOOT of native English speaking authors out there). 

Registered for an optional third math exam, but I needed to have my math oral grades increased too and apparently today's the deadline for that so it's pretty pointless for me to take the exam now. Tutor coming today is similarly pointless.

I detest myself for being so pathetic despite practically everyone else worth comparing myself to giving it their all out there, despite being in far more exhausting, tough, uncomfortable, sad, lonely conditions. There are people out there fighting for their education, fighting for their right to choose their profession, people without a complete, caring family giving it their all, and here I am, fucking the most elementary of stuff up when I have everything else I could ever ask for.

I don't want to care anymore, man. Caring about it just hurts and I just don't fix it myself anyway.

I'd legitimately consider suicide if I could only study in a Turkish university, but the thing is I happen to have family and friends and my self-hatred hasn't surpassed my love for them yet.

 

Just wanting to point out that this is the same thinking trap I fell into after I left the Army. You don't want to self destruct over it, but you don't want to stop caring. Whether it starts in school or later on in life, you can make yourself into a success. It's better to start off sooner while you're retaining as much knowledge as you are. I don't know if you realize this or not, but you've accomplished a lot more in school than I did, and I've even forgotten more than half of what I knew back then.

Posted
19 minutes ago, Down said:

Plz.

Fool yourselves all you want but putting "confession" in front of your posts won't change the fact that this has become a dating advice/complaints version of the majikoi thread :Teeku:

Confession: We all realize that. :ph34r:

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Confession: I was at shop few minutes ago, and I was giving out a filled paper for part-time job. The recipient was a cute girl, and, according to my father who was with me... she gave me a "flirty-look" when we were leaving (we first gave out the papers, then went to the actual shop and then left). If I knew that, I would at least look at her and smile :vinty:

41 minutes ago, Funyarinpa said:

depends on hunger for what:holo:

L-Lewd...

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Confession: Today I had one of the most heart-touching sad moments. There's that old lady who lives alone on the third floor , she has 3 sons who are married and living in different areas. So I was going down the stairs carrying the bag or rubbish out when she called out to me. And then she cried and kept begging me to use my mobile to call her son..... I didn't know what to do tbh. I told her I had no mobile and then showed her my empty pockets (I left my phone upstairs home), she then kept saying the same thing along the lines of please help me, god bless you , help this old lady, I just want to call my son , any of the three , I want them to come here and pick me up....... And the thing is I know them quite well , they would tell me they have no time or that I should call the caretaker to come and have fun with her since that's what she wants. It really depressed me and made me really sad. How can someone forget and ignore their parent this much?.... I don't care about his children or wife .... and the thing is these 3 sons actually left their mother there because they fought with each other about who should take care of her, each of them was arguing that he can't really take care of her and so they left her there......

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4 minutes ago, hsmsful said:

Confession: Today I had one of the most heart-touching sad moments. There's that old lady who lives alone on the third floor , she has 3 sons who are married and living in different areas. So I was going down the stairs carrying the bag or rubbish out when she called out to me. And then she cried and kept begging me to use my mobile to call her son..... I didn't know what to do tbh. I told her I had no mobile and then showed her my empty pockets (I left my phone upstairs home), she then kept saying the same thing along the lines of please help me, god bless you , help this old lady, I just want to call my son , any of the three , I want them to come here and pick me up....... And the thing is I know them quite well , they would tell me they have no time or that I should call the caretaker to come and have fun with her since that's what she wants. It really depressed me and made me really sad. How can someone forget and ignore their parent this much?.... I don't care about his children or wife .... and the thing is these 3 sons actually left their mother there because they fought with each other about who should take care of her, each of them was arguing that he can't really take care of her and so they left her there......

Time to enter the grandma route :illya: 

Posted
4 minutes ago, Palas said:

Confession: I'm thinking about which members behave like which Touhou characters much, much more than I'd like to.

 

firecat is definitely Seija Kijin.

What about me?  >.<

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The game forum which I used to frequent in the past was home to two very stubborn men. Both of them had equipped their avatars with santa hats and made a bet amongst themselves about  who could wear it longer.

That was around 2003 and they are still wearing them to this very day.

Posted
9 hours ago, Eclipsed said:

The people that still have Christmas avatars need to stop dreaming, SANTA AINT REAL

Lies , Lies. I got many presents this year from Santa himself. Hmph

12 hours ago, Kiriririri said:

Time to enter the grandma route :illya: 

Are there vns with such routes?.... there must be...

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Fuuuuuuck

Confession: I feel really silly in math right now. I took the BC (Calc 2) exam for college credits 4 years ago in highschool, and missed 2 questions, ending up within the 99% of all takers of the test.  Time skip to now, having done absolutely no math, and I'm feeling really lost.  I recognize things, but I can't remember what to do with them.  Time to get a crash course in methods of derivation and integration.  These problems on the homework are integration by substitution, I know the name, I remember the description of it, I even remember fucking doing it, but I can't do it now.

YAY! :vinty:

I know there is a gif of this exact feeling out there somewhere.

Posted
2 hours ago, Abyssal Monkey said:

Fuuuuuuck

Confession: I feel really silly in math right now. I took the BC (Calc 2) exam for college credits 4 years ago in highschool, and missed 2 questions, ending up within the 99% of all takers of the test.  Time skip to now, having done absolutely no math, and I'm feeling really lost.  I recognize things, but I can't remember what to do with them.  Time to get a crash course in methods of derivation and integration.  These problems on the homework are integration by substitution, I know the name, I remember the description of it, I even remember fucking doing it, but I can't do it now.

YAY! :vinty:

I know there is a gif of this exact feeling out there somewhere.

Do any of these gifs match your level of frustration?

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angry frustrated panic

 

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80s angry frustrated screaming skeletor

 

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angry hate spongebob squarepants squidward i hate everyone

 

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Confession: I think I just became an accidental scumbag

I told the harry potter fan in my class that alan rickman was dead, I thought she deserved to know ASAP. She was like "why did you tell me" 

Posted
21 minutes ago, Nashetania said:

So there's possibility that I'll get part-time job (physical inventory to be precise) on 23rd and 24th if everything goes well.

Wish me luck, everyone! :wafuu:

Sounds boring as fuck, I would never survive. Good luck.

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