Fuwanovel Confessions

[Funyarinpa]

Confession: I just learned today that I will not be able to afford studying at a top-level university in the UK, and most likely Canada as well. It hits hard- I always assumed my parents would be able to pull through since thanks to them I've always lived an extremely comfortable life. Looking into other options I hadn't considered before, now. Considering to apply to NUS (Nat. Uni. of Singapore), I have a sufficient ACT score for it but will have to take SAT Subject Tests and excel at them; the Singaporean government apparently has this amazing subsidy that takes care of more than half the price of tuition. I'll need to work for three years after graduation in Singapore if that happens, though. Also looked up life in Singapore and apparently it has very stringent rules for the sake of public order and policies for everything (there's a famous chewing gum ban). Anyone with experience/opinions on that (and Singaporean life overall)? Apparently a big majority is also religious... :/ 

Alternatively, this means that I will have to finally get my ass working and struggling for my dream of studying astrophysics at a good university in a good country. I'll really have to boost my GPA and everything, and to top that, I'll really need all exam qualifications I can get (APs, SAT Subject Tests) and get some good extracurricular activities to boot.

It's settled in a couple years too late, but I'm starting to feel the worst bout of college entrance anxiety yet.

[Akimoto Masato]

Just now, Funyarinpa said:

Confession: I just learned today that I will not be able to afford studying at a top-level university in the UK, and most likely Canada as well. It hits hard- I always assumed my parents would be able to pull through since thanks to them I've always lived an extremely comfortable life. Looking into other options I hadn't considered before, now. Considering to apply to NUS (Nat. Uni. of Singapore), I have a sufficient ACT score for it but will have to take SAT Subject Tests and excel at them; the Singaporean government apparently has this amazing subsidy that takes care of more than half the price of tuition. I'll need to work for three years after graduation in Singapore if that happens, though. Also looked up life in Singapore and apparently it has very stringent rules for the sake of public order and policies for everything (there's a famous chewing gum ban). Anyone with experience/opinions on that (and Singaporean life overall)? Apparently a big majority is also religious... :/ 

Alternatively, this means that I will have to finally get my ass working and struggling for my dream of studying astrophysics at a good university in a good country. I'll really have to boost my GPA and everything, and to top that, I'll really need all exam qualifications I can get (APs, SAT Subject Tests) and get some good extracurricular activities to boot.

It's settled in a couple years too late, but I'm starting to feel the worst bout of college entrance anxiety yet.

or you could go to the Netherlands, or Baltimore state but honestly just try harder and see if you can get a scholarship, or if your past that stage try getting a semi good paying job then paying for it later

[Funyarinpa]

Just now, Akimoto Masato said:

or you could go to the Netherlands, or Baltimore state but honestly just try harder and see if you can get a scholarship, or if your past that stage try getting a semi good paying job then paying for it later

I want Astrophysics as my major (or failing that, Literature), which instantly eliminates 95% of colleges since very few places offer astrophysics as a major (NUS doesn't, you apparently need to be a Honors student to specialize in astrophysics there...). 

[Akimoto Masato]

1 minute ago, Funyarinpa said:

I want Astrophysics as my major (or failing that, Literature), which instantly eliminates 95% of colleges since very few places offer astrophysics as a major (NUS doesn't, you apparently need to be a Honors student to specialize in astrophysics there...). 

Ahh, I see, well good luck in finding it

[Eclipsed]

To make up for abandoning my Elementary Japanese 2 class I'm pursuing another for-funzies-wishlist class of mine:

Piano 

It's something I've always wanted to learn but never bothered for whatever reason.

And I learned sooo much just in the first 2 hours today. Everything from proper posture & hand placement/techniques to all the technoterminolobabbles with the middle Cs and treble/bass clefs and how to read them music sheets staff time signature whole quarter half notes/rests etc etc 

The first weeb piano thing i wanna eventually one day self study on the side once I start getting into the groove of things will be Rewrite's Journey theme 

 

[Akimoto Masato]

Confession:my social life doesn't exist in the 3rd dimension 

[Funyarinpa]

10 hours ago, Eclipsed said:

To make up for abandoning my Elementary Japanese 2 class I'm pursuing another for-funzies-wishlist class of mine:

Piano 

It's something I've always wanted to learn but never bothered for whatever reason.

And I learned sooo much just in the first 2 hours today. Everything from proper posture & hand placement/techniques to all the technoterminolobabbles with the middle Cs and treble/bass clefs and how to read them music sheets staff time signature whole quarter half notes/rests etc etc 

The first weeb piano thing i wanna eventually one day self study on the side once I start getting into the groove of things will be Rewrite's Journey theme 

 

Nice. I started the electric guitar 3 years ago with a similar intent (playing the rocks songs and such I used to love then), but it went nowhere (as it often does with me and things that require hard work and dedication). Hope you come to a level enough to play these things you love.

[atorq]

Confession: I went and got that Tinder-thing that the kids are all about these days, however, it seems I am too scared to actually use it...

If someone has seen my balls anywhere, would you please let me know?

[Flutterz]

56 minutes ago, atorq said:

Confession: I went and got that Tinder-thing that the kids are all about these days, however, it seems I am too scared to actually use it...

If someone has seen my balls anywhere, would you please let me know?

At least you were brave enough to install it

[Akimoto Masato]

On 2/4/2017 at 3:57 PM, atorq said:

Confession: I went and got that Tinder-thing that the kids are all about these days, however, it seems I am too scared to actually use it...

If someone has seen my balls anywhere, would you please let me know?

We made a tinder for Mr.PotatoHead ;-; it got 600 matches in the first couple of days

if I see your balls I will notify you

Spoiler

Not

 

Edited February 6, 2017 by Akimoto Masato

[atorq]

3 hours ago, Akimoto Masato said:

if I see your balls I will notify you

I found my balls, or at least parts of them. Now the next problem arises with messaging matches. I have no idea what I'm doing, it's like learning to ride a bike, except with a lot more anxiety and awkwardness.

[Akimoto Masato]

4 minutes ago, atorq said:

I found my balls, or at least parts of them. Now the next problem arises with messaging matches. I have no idea what I'm doing, it's like learning to ride a bike, except with a lot more anxiety and awkwardness.

Ah so your just part man now? Or part beta? Idk

[atorq]

Just now, Akimoto Masato said:

Ah so your just part man now? Or part beta? Idk

Judging from my previous posts you can probably strike the latter "part"...

[Akimoto Masato]

5 minutes ago, atorq said:

Judging from my previous posts you can probably strike the latter "part"...

Well at least you admit too it

Edited February 6, 2017 by Akimoto Masato
Wrong too, I think...

[Soulless Watcher]

That awkward moment when you are just casually heading to the bathroom of the dorm and hear some very loud sex noises coming from one of the rooms. I genuinely couldn't tell if it was just porn or the actual article, but dear god did it sound wet. 

[Eclipsed]

I just tore into my PSVR savings to splurge on the cheapest four+ star 88 key piano I could find on Amazon for my piano class, das how srs I am in my conquest for pianistsisms <insertsadwalletemoticon>

Our first performance test will be in a couple weeks and its Jingle Bells, ez, i got dis.

[Eclipsed]

I just had that classic coincidental all stars align to fk you in the ass

Procrastinate 'til the last day to go to bookstore to buy the textbook to do the assignment before english class? Nope sorrz, out of stock

It's k, plan B is to go use the reserve copy in the library? Nope sorrz, someone 'bought' the book via writing in the textbook and thus having to pay damage fees, on this very day, presumably because that fker did the same thing as me and realized the bookstore was out of stock

stick to amazon/chegg from nowon, jesus

[Flutterz]

1 minute ago, Eclipsed said:

I just had that classic coincidental all stars align to fk you in the ass

Procrastinate 'til the last day to go to bookstore to buy the textbook to do the assignment before english class? Nope sorrz, out of stock

It's k, plan B is to go use the reserve copy in the library? Nope sorrz, someone 'bought' the book via writing in the textbook and thus having to pay damage fees, on this very day, presumably because that fker did the same thing as me and realized the bookstore was out of stock

stick to amazon/chegg from nowon, jesus

Textbook example of why you shouldn't procrastinate

[Eclipsed]

i've gotten away with it 99% of the time, this is the 1% life is bs 

[Akimoto Masato]

59 minutes ago, Eclipsed said:

I just had that classic coincidental all stars align to fk you in the ass

Procrastinate 'til the last day to go to bookstore to buy the textbook to do the assignment before english class? Nope sorrz, out of stock

It's k, plan B is to go use the reserve copy in the library? Nope sorrz, someone 'bought' the book via writing in the textbook and thus having to pay damage fees, on this very day, presumably because that fker did the same thing as me and realized the bookstore was out of stock

stick to amazon/chegg from nowon, jesus

That moment when you finally know what it feels like to be in the one percent 

[Kawasumi]

On 1/30/2017 at 5:01 AM, Fred the Barber said:

Confession: For as long as I can remember, mostly at night, my right ear will randomly turn bright red, while my left ear looks perfectly normal. If I touch them, the left one is my normal body temperature or even a bit cooler, but the right one is way hot, like my right ear has a fever or something. It's happening right now. I have no idea why.

this happens to me everytime im tired lol

[Kaguya]

8 hours ago, Zenophilious said:

Confession: I learned that my grandmother had a stroke this morning, and I didn't really feel all that sad.  I'm actually more worried about how it'll affect my grandfather.  As shitty as this sounds, I've pretty much cut all emotional ties to her.  She's racist, sexist, verbally and emotionally abusive in the extreme, and just generally not a nice person.  She's pretty nice to me and her other grandkids, but not to anyone else around her, and that has basically made me hate being around and interacting with her.

I know I should feel scared and sad, but I don't really feel anything like that.  My second thought (after something along the lines of "Holy shit, that's terrible") was, "Well, maybe now she'll shut her mouth for once".  For context, the stroke apparently affected the speech center of her brain.  I feel pretty ashamed of my feelings and that thought, but I just can't make myself forgive her for the way she's acted and the things she's said and done in the past.  I guess the fact that I feel shame for feeling that way means something, but I still feel like a terrible person.

I think it's pretty normal not to feel anything when something bad happens to a loved one, though apparently it's more normal to feel sad.

I don't think I ever got sad at news of someone dying, which isn't to say I didn't care about the people who did die.

I dunno, probably not the most reliable person out there to talk about this, ugh. 

[Eclipsed]

You must've been exposed to quite the amount of BS and darkness from your grandmums to harbor such feelings, I barely ever got to see my paternal grandpops (outta state) so when he passed the most I could feel was indifferent / that's unfortunate

I did have those fkin random nightmares throughout my life though where my parents or another direct loved one died and so i bawled so hard in the dream i legit woke in tears

[Soulless Watcher]

11 hours ago, Zenophilious said:

Confession: I learned that my grandmother had a stroke this morning, and I didn't really feel all that sad.  I'm actually more worried about how it'll affect my grandfather.  As shitty as this sounds, I've pretty much cut all emotional ties to her.  She's racist, sexist, verbally and emotionally abusive in the extreme, and just generally not a nice person.  She's pretty nice to me and her other grandkids, but not to anyone else around her, and that has basically made me hate being around and interacting with her.

I know I should feel scared and sad, but I don't really feel anything like that.  My second thought (after something along the lines of "Holy shit, that's terrible") was, "Well, maybe now she'll shut her mouth for once".  For context, the stroke apparently affected the speech center of her brain.  I feel pretty ashamed of my feelings and that thought, but I just can't make myself forgive her for the way she's acted and the things she's said and done in the past.  I guess the fact that I feel shame for feeling that way means something, but I still feel like a terrible person.

I totally get you, I was never close to my grandmother on my father's side and pretty much never saw her until two thirds of my life had past. My siblings and my dad would visit her once in a blue moon and she seemed decent, except I could never understand a fucking word she said because her first language was Korean and she barely could speak English. Which stressed both of us out, since neither of us could understand what the other was saying. 

I learned later on that she wasn't the most stable person, she came from a life of poverty and my biological grandfather just kinda swooped in, knocked her up, than left. So, she had to raise my dad and his brother by herself, which if the drunken ramblings of my father are to be believed, involved screaming, bamboo beatings, and harsh punishments for trying to get a part time job to help feed the family. 

I did gather that recently, until she had a stroke which prevented her from moving very well, she would beat her and my er - (is step-grandpa a term? well anyways my dad's stepfathers') dogs and she still had a habit of screaming. Oh and apparently the reason I never saw her before my teenage years was because she was against my dad marrying a non-korean, so that was nice. Although she apparently did visit us a handful of times when I was super young and tried to make me take a bath in near boiling water, while my Mother wasn't paying attention. 

I still make the effort to tag along with the fam whenever they go to say hello at the retirement home she now resides at. I still don't really understand her and I don't think we could have ever been close, but she knows she doesn't have very much life to live and seeing her grandchildren is one of her few pleasures left. As much as I talk shit about not caring about other people, seeing the complex look of happiness and sadness on her face (since she doesn't know if this will be the last time she will see my family before she kicks the bucket) is quite gut wrenching........ although I wish she would stop complaining about my hair. 

Edited February 10, 2017 by Soulless Watcher

[Eclipsed]

Good thing about being a good counter:

More hours

 

Bad thing about being a good counter:

More hours

 

10 hours out in the field today cuz the last 4 was spent bailing out another inventory that had suxxorz counters/no call no shows, wtf kind of part time job am i working