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I'm sorry you suffered so much pain. I can't relate, but best of luck. There'll always be somebody to listen to you, never forget that. It'll be okay.

What reason would I have to give some inveterate cunt any of my precious mental bandwidth?

Hmmm, sounds like you're leaping to some pretty serious conclusions. I'm gonna use google to present a milder alternative:

Wrong thread buddy... I think you need this one

Because some still doubt me... Here I am, with a living, breathing, human female.

I don't really have anywhere (or anyone) else to vent to about this, and i'm feeling extremely frustrated about whats been going on with my head over the past two or three weeks. Maybe some of you go through, or have gone through the same thing and can relate here. Anyways, I have had an anxiety disorder for..i'd say almost two years now (or at least that's when I got it diagnosed). It started back when I was still a sophomore in High School, I wasn't really into drugs, though I did smoke Cigarettes, and I ended up coming over to a friends house that wanted to get high. I took a hit off the bong he had, and all seemed well, though it didn't really seem to do much, or so I thought. A good half hour or so after that I was lying on the couch he had in his room, taking a sip of Coke when I started feeling this odd warm sensation in my chest, which quickly escalated into what I ended up discovering to be a panic attack. I called my Mom to come pick me up (and subsequently told her about what I did, out of fear for my own life, since I thought I just had some sort of heart attack/stroke) and she assured me that everything would be okay. I end up going to the doctors the next day, who think I am some crazy paranoid schizophrenic because I am freaking out about it, thinking it's some life threatening issue, and the guy issues me medicine for schizophrenia. That obviously doesn't work and the symptoms get worse, to the point where I am having panic attacks back to back for hours on end, sometimes losing days worth of sleep. I don't know how I didn't go insane. Fast forward a bit. I finally get into this mental clinic place for teens with mental problems as an out-patient, though most of the kids there were for being suicidal/having anger problems/etc so I couldn't really relate to anyone and felt a little isolated. Towards the end of me going there I was finally given medicine to help deal with my anxiety, which worked great until these past few weeks. It all started a little before my parents left for vacation in Cancun. Whenever I would try and fall asleep, I would jolt awake as if my heart had stopped and I would be too terrified to fall back to sleep. Eventually that started to fade, and I could sleep a bit easier, but over the last couple weeks (this past week in particular) it feels like this is hell on earth. The jolting awake thing is back, except now there's usually a shocking feeling in my foot when it happens, my panic attacks have gotten worse to the point of completely mimicking the symptoms of a stroke and a heart attack at the same time, my back muscles have been pretty stiff, and I've had tremors in my arms and legs as well. I thought that it could be ALS, as some of the symptoms match, but seeing as how they have come and gone and twitching doesn't occur in ALS victims until the muscle has lost function, I don't think it's that. Also i'm only 19 and it doesn't run in the family, so I feel like it's highly unlikely. Probably anxiety induced BFS, from what my research has brought up, but only time (and a doctors visit) can tell, I suppose. Anyways, i'm not entirely sure what the point of this post is, but venting my frustration with whatever the hell is going on with me has made me feel a little better. Not even sure if i'll post this, but I probably will just because I took the time to write it, would be a waste not to post it. I guess this could give some of you who don't experience this insight about what it feels like. Does anyone else go through anything like this? What are your experiences with anxiety, if you have any? Feel free to vent as I did.

I dunno about anyone else, but I'm finding the common insults in the English language rather dull. Not that the English language is incapable of good insults, just that the majority of people rely on previously written ones which have been used to death and are just boring. An indication not only of people's general lack of creativity, but their uninspired use of language in all forms of their life. 'Go fuck [insert person.]' 'Screw you'. 'Fuck you.' 'Go home [insert derogatory term].' All generic, all boring. Do insults REALLY carry weight when we trot out regurgitated crap like this? Surely a few seconds of thought would be worth the added meaning it would give to the abuse?

I rather stay with the word fuck (which is my fav word in the english language) (link for the real video http://www.nailmaster.ru/fuck.html)

I think with social anxiety and talking to other people, what has helped me is remembering is that most people in the world are nice people and that nothing really bad can happen from speaking up. Also to sort of continue on Rooke's quote, I've found that keeping healthy habits has increased my confidence around others in social situations. Just remember that we're always here together.

Also just now realizing how dark that sounded

I've had panic attacks a few times over the last year too. It usually comes with physical pains, slight vertigos and headaches that last days or even weeks afterwards. Not very pleasant, although it's been getting better lately. It took me a while (several months) to realize I was actually getting panic attacks and that it wasn't "normal" to freak out over what I had so I never went to see a psychiatrist though. Only pointless medical exams to check if there wasn't something wrong. You probably know that already but be wary of what you can read on the internet. Sometimes reading other people with symptoms similar to yours help easing the anxiety, but sometimes it just makes it worse as you become persuaded you have some horrible illness and are going to die soon.

I don't even have 1 friend IRL Also >waifus

Yeah I have the same problem with social anxiety as well. Turns out that yeah you don't really make friends, so I only have one IRL friend at this point, who i'm not even that close to. But hey, who needs friends when you have waifus amiright

Guess I might as well post about mine, even though I've mentioned it several times in the confessions thread. My social anxiety has to do with new situations, especially talking to people and especially talking to people I don't know. As a result, it's pretty easy to avoid it by sitting at home, and in the situations where I do go out not talking to anyone. Turns out that's a pretty good way of having literally no friends. It's pretty terrible when I don't avoid it though, it's manageable when I go somewhere new or I talk to someone I know decently well (although it's still way more stressful than it should be), but when I have to talk to someone I don't know I basically just BSOD, I just freeze up and can't do anything, let alone talk normally. I've been seeing a therapist for a few weeks now but I can't say it's really been helping much.

I have been dealing with social anxiety for about 5 years. It has primarily been difficult for me to be around large groups of people, especially strangers. Also being in unkown environments has been terrefying, making me just want to run and hide. It made being at school, trying to get work and going to social gatherings very difficult. Something as simple as visiting my relatives at their summer place was enough to make me just shut myself in my room, as I was scared of the new place that I had never been to before, (despite the fact that the only people I was going there with was my family.) It was extremely annoying and frustrating. My absence in school has pretty much always been crazy high. We are talking 40 days + of absence every year. I was able to get over the worst of it after a couple of years with a therapist, who helped me a great deal. I still feel it, and it still makes trying out new things terrefying, like starting a new school / university, moving to a new city and traveling to an unknown country. It's scary as fuck, and I have to focus on the things I learned in therapy in order to get through it, but I have come a long way and it isn't holding me back much anymore. I still sometimes find myself hit by panic attacks, though I'm able to keep them in check fairly well. It's really difficult to give someone in similar situations advice, because the truth is, everyone experiences these things differently. What helped me might just piss off someone else. Social anxiety comes in many forms, and they really only have one thing in common: they all fucking suck. That being said, my advice would be to try and find a psychologist who you feel really comfortable with. A professional wont do shit if you don't feel like you can talk to them about anything. (After all, if you aren't giving them all the correct info they need, actually coming up with a way to help you wont be easy.) If you can find someone like that, someone you can really talk to and open up to, then it becomes a lot easier. First of all, you have someone to talk to about it, which helps in itself. But you will be able to get help from a professional, who will hopefully be able to figure out what you need to do to get over the problem. Or at the very least, teach you how to keep it in check. It was the latter for me. I didn't need any medication, I simply needed to pull my shit together. (My psychologist was quite blunt, but that was what made me like her so much. It was so easy to open up to her. Speaking to her about my problems was like second nature to me.) Don't know if this will help anyone at all, but that's at least my history with social anxiety.

What triangle? I hope you don't mean Rem, cuz there hasn't been anything pointing at her falling for Subaru, but rather finally trusting him as a friend and being really grateful. We (and specially anime producers) tend to forget that there's something called "a trillion different feelings apart from love" in the world. We are too used to epic adventures where people randomly fall in love with each other nonstop. Re:Zero has proved, at least for now, that it's not gonna take the road of trashy anime, where being a decent human being and/or helping makes anything with female genitals fall in love with you. We didn't even see a blush on her face, as long as I remember from today's episode, so I'd be really shocked at the sheer stupidity of the author pulling a love triangle out of his ass.

At the very least, this event give us a bunch of tickets. But yeah, rather than just the reward the whole event is kind of shabby

The bottle with the marble is called ramune. Bubble tea is great, but you definitely need to try different combinations of flavors until you find the right one for you.

Today, i went to a local(ish) anime con with a friend, and i picked up a hardcopy of saya no uta, the first 2 volumes of yotsuba&! and some imported snacks. overall, a good day! Edit: By the way, that hardcopy was 50 fucking euros, even though it only costs 25 on jlist grumble grumble I was surprised by how little I was embarassed buying it though, even though it was basically the only stand with any porn, and had a big sign saying 'Interactive hentai games!' and was also surrounded by Naruto fanboys pointing and laughing at the softhouse seal-boobies. I bet they secretly wished they could muster the courage

Amusingly, and contrary to the specifics of this argument, Japanese uses rising intonation at the end of a sentence for questions as well. However, I agree with your general claim that the way the languages express emotion is somewhat different (one thing I've personally noticed: English tendency to use clipped sounds when exasperated, vs. Japanese tendency to use elongated sounds when exasperated), and I'll offer what I believe to be an additional, stronger argument, since it applies even when the techniques are the same: Assuming the audience doesn't know much Japanese at all (which I think is a fair assumption for the argument), even if you assume the audience can understand the emotions being applied using various tones and emphases, they won't understand the specific words to which those tones and emphases are applied. So in all likelihood, they'll often misunderstand which word it's applied to, and therefore not actually grasp the meaning.

Finished Amagi Brilliant Park and Haikyu season 1. Amagi was really nice but I wish That aside, I don't know what I expected from Amagi Brilliant Park but I really like what I got anyway. Haikyu is in a similar situation. My friends keep saying that its hype but while I did get excited at a few parts, it wasn't the excitement I was expecting. The way the matches end up proceeding don't lend itself to hype me up. Maybe it was more hype when it was a weekly watch instead of a binge watch. Started Haikyu season 2 against my better judgement even though I know there's going to be a third season of Haikyu.

The same person was arguing there was no point in companies doing official localisations of works that already had a fan translation...

Have you read the rest of this thread? That argument has been beaten to death several times. It's not about pulling in an existing audience, but creating a new one. The person who'll be voicing this is a famous cosplayer with a large follower base on social media. This is a great opportunity to expand the market.

Whether or not a VN gets an 18+ release is up to the Japanese publisher. The only VN they've published with an 18+ version that didn't get an 18+ release was G-Senjou and that was due to the Japanese publisher not wanting it. Dovac has since mused about asking again now that they okayed an 18+ version of Sharin no Kuni. They actually do want to release 18+ versions of all their stuff so they can cash in on everyone who prefers them. SP has pretty much stopped talking "in code" about 18+ releases like Dergonu said they do, and are pretty direct about things. It sounds like they are going to announce multiple 18+ versions of their upcoming games at AX. If they say something wishy-washy about a release, then you should actually take that at face value. For Tenshin Ranman specifically, it sounds like they just might not know, yet. Ultimately, they can't talk much about deals still in progress. The big difference about SP from the other companies is that they don't always immediately negotiate for 18+ versions. It seems like they just try to cement whatever deal they can first and then negotiate for 18+ after, if it was left out. Whereas for MG and JAST, 18+ seems to remain a deal breaker for all games that have that. This flexibility has been pretty successful for SP so far, and Steam is way bigger than the 18+ market, so I can't blame them for that.

Kickstarter Link:https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1803745874/reach-for-the-stars-a-yuri-visual-novel (please support us if you can) On Steam: https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=700725357 Story Summary-After a near suicide attempt, Abby returns to her old home town in order to heal the inner wounds of her past. When arriving back to Belmont she makes quick friends with a group of girls who all appear to have what she doesn’t; true happiness. But on her way to recovery Abby will find that no one has an easy life and in order to progress past the pain they must learn to face their greatest fears and darker selves. Can she help them? Will she herself be able to forget her own trouble past? Or will she herself once again sink back into her depression? Help Abby get to know her new friends and maybe find something more. But be careful, even the happiest person holds a deep dark secret, a secret which will either break or make them stronger in the end. It's up to you to decide their's and Abby's fate. Characters Abby Our main character. She suffers from depression and has moved to Belmont with the hopes of recovering. Unfortunately her fears of the past have made her a bit skeptical with making new friends and being able to trust others. She's an overall kind girl, but at times her mouth gets the better of her. Her closest relationship is with Riko, who she admires greatly for being able to be herself and not worry of past mistakes. She is someone who deeply regrets her actions easily as well and is a bit apologetic whenever she does something wrong. As she grows though, Abby shows a more confident side and learns to trust others again. Has a love for food, video games, and writing fantasy stories. Kei A friendly yet sometimes overbearing girl who takes an interest in Abby the moment they meet. Due to her upbeat and energetic personality, Kei is well liked by many at school. However her ways can at times be a bit much for others, with some even calling her annoying. She is always positive though, something which contrasts Abby. Kei is also a bit on the lazy side however and isn't the most dependable person in the world. Her care for Abby though isn't a big mystery, they were once friends. What is the mystery is why the friendship broke and how a part of Kei feels like Abby deserted. Her dream is to leave Belmont and see the cities, maybe making into in the music career if she's lucky enough. Her route's theme is Trust. Chris Good friend of Kei though many wonder how polar opposites could ever get along. Unlike Kei, Chris is cold, serious, and a go getter, always trying to reach for the top. She has this desperate urge to fit in and gain the respect of those around her. Her perfectionism though can at times make her want to do rather impossible things, like doing an entire float by herself. Despite her attitude she is very dependable and smart, making her liked by many of her teachers. Sadly her home life isn't much to talk about and she is the black sheep of the family. She longs to find a place where she can be happy. Her route's theme is Growth. Yoko Yoko- A half Japanese and half american student who has a deep love for money. Like Kei, Yoko is popular at school but more for her looks and intelligence. She can be a friendly person, but she is also very competitive and at times looks down on others. She tries her best to earn the respect of others by using her brains and skills with business. Like her dad Yoko has a love for money and is very good at handling it. She also has pride in her family background and will not stand for anyone who says otherwise. Sadly, despite how things may seem, she isn’t the happiest person as her parents put much strain on her life to shape her in their image. Though money seems to be her only love, Yoko is secretly taking up a new hobby that she hides from many. Her route's theme is Acceptance Emily An underclassman who is often in the shadows. Emily has little care for most and often spends her time with her head in a book. To her life is more of a hellish reality while the world in her books is the ideal thing. Emily is cold, quiet, and a bit too honest. She isn’t afraid to express her feelings and it’s her brutal honesty that has made her target number one for her classmates. Still she isn’t the snow queen that everyone believes since she actually has deep love for her grandmother who is one of the few who understand her. Despite being mature for her age Emily has abandonment issues and can get easily attached to a person she cares deeply for in fear that they will leave her. In truth though Emily use to be a very friendly and happy girl but that all changed when she received the huge burn mark on the right side of her eye. Still maybe with the right group of people she will understand the true meaning of friendship and trust others again. Her route's theme is Change. Mara Mara - Best friend of Yoko. Similar to Yoko, Mara is from a rich family, but she is a someone who will be friends with anyone no matter who or what their family backgrounds are. She is a friendly and in a way motherly person who will try her best to care for others who need it. Sadly her compassion can often be taken advantage of given how gullible and naive she can be, which is why Yoko often has to take care of her seemingly clueless friend. Still Mara may not be as naive as some think and actually might be able to read people much more easily, which can either be a good or bad thing. Mara’s passions lie in acting and she is becoming a very talented actor. However with playing so many roles, one has to question her true personality. Riko Abby’s older sister. Riko has taken in Abby in order to help her little sis recover from the past. Unlike Abby, Riko is a friendly, positive and a bit cunning. She loves her sister deeply though sometimes her forceful ways make it hard for Abby to deal with her. In terms of hobbies, she aspires to be a painter and hopes to start commissioning, but until then she has to do a part time job in order to pay for food and other things. Though close with Abby, she hides certain secrets from her sister that she fears may trigger her traumas again Example of a CG Gameplay Reach for the Stars is planned to be a rather long visual novel. The player will first play the common route which not only introduces the characters, but also shows how each character will become friends with each other thanks to the Full Moon Festival, an event which happens every year in Belmont. The player will be given many choices in the common route and depending on your choices you will get one of the routes. Like the common route you will be given many choices in that said girl's route which will determine what ending you get. Note however that not all the choices are clear cut, so it'll take some serious thinking on some. This game will have it's light hearted moments, but also dramatic one. As it says it is a romance story, but the romance will not just come. In each route Abby will grow even closer with the girl and once their darker truths are known, will help them come to terms with their problems and vice versa. The romance does play a major role, but some may not be happy all the time I plan to make this game at the least 150,000 words with the hopes that I can deliver a fun and yet realistic story. The game will also be compatible for Windows, Mac, and Linux. Credits Infellune(Elle)- Creator, Head of team, Writer, and Coder. Aya https://twitter.com/creampette-Lead Artist dexter https://www.facebook.com/dexterneal64- CG artist LadyOfGatsby-GUI Artist (is on Lemmesoft) Paper Doors Studios https://twitter.com/ShojiAmasawa- Logo Trailer-sunrose (Lemmesoft)