You may be right. I've just recently been figuring out exactly what my situation is to some avail and while I'm confident that I put it down correctly, the confidence I was trying to assume at the end was somewhat false. I want to be different, at least, in this respect. I want to be more normal.
I dont have enough experience to say whether or not changing is something you can do versus something that only happens to you, but I guess I'll see. Maybe something like an enforced routine or a different environment can cause some personal changes that otherwise would not have sen the light of day. So in that respect, I expect that I have at least some control over who I'll become in the coming months and years.
It is scary, though. Very scary.